So Frustrated!

Ugh, why can't I just have the perfect wedding that Jeff and I deserve?!

I've just about had it up to here *raises hand above head*.  Things were going so great.  We had all of our invitations done and ready to be shipped out.  My dress fittings were going perfectly.  We are on track with our budget.  Why does one person have to go and screw everything up?

I'm talking about the Pastor that is doing our wedding ceremony for us.  I don't know what the hell is wrong with this guy to tell you the truth.  First of all, I just want to say that I believe in God but I don't understand some of the decisions that he puts in people's heads.  Our Pastor is REFUSING to let me walk down the aisle to "Here Comes The Bride", you know, the traditional bridal march.  What is his reasoning you ask?  Apparently the person who wrote the song over a hundred years ago wrote about paganism and this song isn't meant for God, it's meant for Pagan worshippers. 

WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!?!

If this is true, how come every other bride in every other single church is allowed to have it?  It is not fair that my parents, aunt, uncles, cousins, and who ever else got married in my family is allowed to have it and I'm not.  I have dreamed about walking down the aisle to that song since I was a little girl.  The Pastor says the words are meant to worship me, not worship God.  Well I hate to tell him this, but #1) No one even knows the words and they certainly won't be singing and #2) Everyone will be looking at Jeff and I, they won't be thinking about God.

I don't even have a second choice for music, and even if I did he'd probably turn in down because it wasn't written for God.  Even more stupid, he is letting my Uncle sing a song that he wrote during the license signing and he sure as hell didn't write that song for God, he wrote it to praise his wife. 

You wanna know what the worst part is?  We told him when we saw him at Christmas that we wanted the traditional bridal march and he agreed that we could have it!  He even wrote it down on his papers!  Now all of sudden we can't have it and his lame ass excuse is "when you said the word 'traditional', that could have meant anything".  If he didn't know exactly what we meant, he should have fucking said something when we meant with him 3 times!  EVERYONE knows what the traditional bridal march is, he's just being a sneaky bastard.

I'm sorry if I sound so mean when I'm talking about a Pastor, but this guy is just full of himself.  He's ruining my wedding ceremony.  I really don't want to have anything to do with him or his church ever again.

-Ashley