Going Insane!

First of all, that 30 day challenge thing I was doing on here... obviously I have failed horribly at keeping it up to date so I've just decided to let it go.  Getting engaged right in the middle of the challenge didn't help its cause either, I am just too damn excited to write about anything else!

Actually I'm not feeling very excited about the whole wedding as of late.  Things are just getting out of hand.  I mean, we have 11 months and 18 days to go before the big day and our families are pushing us to get everything done RIGHT NOW!  We already have the church and the reception site booked, plus the DJ, so we are well ahead of schedule.  I'm also getting my dress next month, so that will also be out of the way. 

My mother is also driving me nuts.  She says that I HAVE to spend the night before my wedding in her house, no matter what.  The only problem it, there will be 16 other people there!  I will get no sleep and there is no way I will be able to get ready in the morning.  My hair and makeup people won't even be able to park or get in the door!  My sister and I already talked and we are going to be staying in a hotel the night before and that's that.  I don't care what my Mom says, I don't even live there so I don't know why she wants me there for that one night so bad.  If she wants to see me the night before, she can come to the hotel, it's that simple.  I just don't need my 2 grandmothers, my grandfather, my aunt and her boyfriend, and a whole bunch of other people crowing around me in the middle of a Southern Ontario summer on the morning of my wedding, it's just not happening.  I will have a panic attack I know it, so I'm just doing what I want to do.  It's my wedding dammit!  Jeff agrees with me too, he wants to make sure that everything goes perfect for us and he even offered to put my maids of Honor and my bridesmaid in a hotel too so that they have room to get ready also.  Oh my God what a shit show this is turning out to be!

To make matter worse I've been really sick this past week.  I went swimming the river for the first time in 3 years because I have to be cautious with my allergy.  First time in 3 years and I get sick of course.  I had a fever of 102.5 F for 2 days but it seems to have gone down now.  My head just feels really heavy still, like I have an extremely bad cold but I'm not stuffed up or anything.  I just hope it goes away soon.  Tonight we are going to the casino to try to win the $150k jackpot in Bingo (not likely to win lol, but it's still fun).  I hope I am feeling a bit better by then at least.  I've been living off of vitamin C tablets lol.  They are the only thing that works for me.  We are going tonight with my bridesmaid and her husband, who is also in our wedding as an usher.  It's going to be really fun.

Well, I'm off to get my day started.  Talk to you all later!

Ps.  I just found this wedding template and I am loving it!
Pps.  Oh and I also just made a HUGE ELF order this week, so when it comes in I'll show you what I got!

-Ashley